Wednesday, February 27, 2008 10:28:00 PM
Emo Nemo
I am so frustrated and hurt by my parents sometimes. I'm not sure how I should put it.. Somehow I feel that the things that I accomplish, they are not be half as proud as they would be towards my brother's accomplishments.
It's my gut feeling and I trust my gut feelings. Siblings rivalry is inevitable. Genders are NEVER equal.
I'm happy my brother got his driving license today but it's exaggerating to see how my dad beam with pride. Whereas, when I said I'm going to give them a treat tmr with my first pay check, he didn't even beam half as much. This is not the first time such an incidence happen.. I'M JEALOUS.. so what?! Come on.. I bloody got myself a degree education, I took almost no time in getting a job in a reputable US MNC, I'm bloody getting my FIRST PAY CHECK tmr and going to give a treat. I deserve to share some "beams of pride" from my parents. Sometimes I feel as if I don't match up to my brother. I've to work twice as hard while perhaps he doesn't need to try and I wouldn't get as much credits as him. Yeah he's smart and he'll GET THERE if he tries hard enough. So? I'm dumb la.. it doesn't happen naturally for me and therefore have to work doubly hard to reach my "destination".
I'm so sick and tired of getting these treatments from my parents over the years although I believe they are doing without realising the damage it's having on me. They will always think I'm over sensitive when I voice out to them. Wonder why I have low self esteem and always thinking that I'm not good enough...
Von: Your think positively about this issue is not working on me today lei.. The situation is so bad that I think my heart is turning black..
Sunday, February 24, 2008 9:31:00 PM
Running
I did it!I put on my pair of running shoes and scooted out of the house to the park for a jog. It was tiring and I was out of breath within the first round. I'm that unfit BUT it was great!! Feeling the wind against your face, working my under-utilised muscles... After 3 rounds, that's the max I can do now =(, I did some sit ups at the bench. Did about 30 and when I couldn't lift my adomen up any more, I just lay flat on the bench and stare up into the dark blue sky.
I felt a moment of peace... time stood still as I counted the stars in the sky.. I stopped blinking my eyes.. I felt like I'm not on earth and is afraid that once I blink my eyes I'll be brought back down to reality. It is a nice reward after the strenuous exercise
I really should do this more often. Must try to maintain my health since now I seldom carry heavy bags and is cooped up in an air conditioned environment which is not very good for the body.
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A piece of conversation with my dad that I found very funny:
While waiting for my mom's plane to touch down.. Dad (bored): Girl, let me see your palms.
I turned up my palms and let him see.Dad: Eh, I see your palms got alot of lines lei.. You see mine.. Lesser lines now.. But last time got alot of lines..
I know what he was trying to get at i.e. I'll have alot of obstacles to overcome in my life. But I felt bored too due to the long wait so I wasn't feeling very chatty and patient.Me (in a cynical tone): Ya, I'm not a licensed fortune teller but I see alot of lines on your palms.
Duh!! You see lines because there are lines!!
(roll eyes)
Friday, February 22, 2008 9:07:00 AM
Muttons @ Midnight
On a show
YOU COMPLAIN! I had something like this on the trailer for this program.
Caller: I want to complain about my CCA ah!
Muttons: Which CCA and what about it?
Caller: The school don't pay enough attention to the
softball CCA la. Even if we win a competition, they also never announce it.
Mutton: I know what you need. You need the
little BLUE pill la. So that the
softball becomes
hardball. Then they will pay attention!
............................. -_-
Guffaws!!!! Hahahaha
Thursday, February 21, 2008 10:33:00 PM
Just a few words
Just looking at the colourful jelly soil cheers me up. I've been taking good care of these 2 previously abandoned plants.. They look much greener and healthier now =)
I had lunch at the Macdonalds in Bt. Merah Central. Brings back fond memories of my childhood. I just to go for birthday parties during primary school days in this area cordoned off for children's parties. Amazingly this place in unchanged since 1990.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008 9:23:00 AM
A Grave Mistake
What is done cannot be undone and I just hope that this matter will just blow over peacefully. I do not deserved to be forgived but I'll be very serious in trying to make this change from now on. It's time for me to do so rather than laugh it off whenever these things happen.
Monday, February 18, 2008 8:22:00 PM
Life's Simple Pleasures
What a good way to end a day's work..
1. Have dinner with your beloved
2. Calm your facial nerves with a good facial mask
3. Check for new online sprees to participate in
4. Watch an episode of light hearted Korean drama (i just finished Coffee Prince, now moving on to Witch Yoo Hee
What's your simple pleasures?
Friday, February 15, 2008 7:02:00 PM
My Boss is a Cool Dude
Yeah that's right. My boss is an Australian guy who is very charismatic and all the gals in the office like to flirt with him. No joke. They all seem to be very hyper around him. Except me, of course, I have to keep my calm since I have to work for him!
But he's very nice, always finding out how I'm doing and helping me out when I face problems at work. At first (Jo and Syl knows about this) I was worried I will not be able to concentrate on my work and instead will be melting under his intense gaze.. Problem with coloured eyes.. Anyway, I'm past that phase thankfully and I find myself really enjoying working under him =)
He's very easy going, friendly and goofy.. He jumps around the office at times for no good reason..
Anyway, the main thing why I'm writing this today is that he let me off early at work today!!!
The conversation went like this: (knock, knock)Boss: "Hey, you do you know in Australia's culture people leave early on Fridays? Take the afternoon off.. Go home.."Me: (stare at him in disbelief) "You're not kidding me, are you? But this is Singapore's culture"Boss: "No! Of course not.. We should incorporate that culture in Singapore.."Me: "Really? I can go home? I can really go home now? Ok.. I'm packing up!" -_- I felt really guility about leaving early and it was 1 hour before 5.30pm (my usual knock off time) which I don't understand why since I brought the company's laptop home.. You can see from the conversation that I had to double check several times to ensure that it wasn't a joke. Really unbelievable.. Haha! I couldn't stop grinning as I leave the office. It's a wonder how much joy I experience just by getting an hour off from work..
Thursday, February 14, 2008 10:12:00 PM
A Short Note
I'm blessed =) My cuppycake is so adorable.. Love talking with him and teasing him.. Our conversations are always filled with laughter.. Today is Valentine's day and its the very first time we are celebrating on the actual day itself. Very symbolic day 14 Feb 2008..
Thank you dear for putting in so much effort in getting the tortise! And we should feedback to Ichiban Boshi to include your terriyaki chicken don in their future festive season menu.. -_-
Welcome the new addition to the family! I'm calling it Tortise at the moment.. It's going to accompany me in the office as my back support.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008 8:24:00 PM
Mid Week Syndrome
As I walk to the office today I was wishing that the weekend would arrive soon. Which I believe is the mid week syndrome that hits all blue and white collar workers. So fast! Not even 2 weeks into the job I'm hit! And the 1st week was spent mostly on lunch and coffee treats from my team mates as well as the CNY celebrations.
Work is pretty demanding but fulfilling.. I'm glad I'm given a HR position with a more strategic role rather than the usual admin work. Although I am (will be) drowned by all the reports that I've to churn out.. It's a very good learning platform towards a managerial role. Already I can see my career advance with the company. I'm also very glad the focus that the company has on HR - they obviously see the value in human capital. The processes that are being carried out are modeled after what I've learnt in SMU in terms of HR - which is quite impressive.. So I shall see if textbook concepts works.
One thing that I'm amused about is how the IT support functions. There are no IT guy in the office to troubleshoot IT problems. What I have to do is to lauch a live chat with the IT support from INDIA and log my case. Then an IT expert will help me solve it. He does it by gaining remote access of my laptop. It's kinda amazing how technology advances.. So basically for 2 days I have been sitting at the office watching my laptop being controlled by another person from across the globe!!
Sighs.. I'm starting to feel old.. But whatever.. I can't wait for salary to come in!!
Take a look at some pictures I took from my desk =)
My spacious desk space
Finally found my place in the corporate world.. This is quite symbolic
Oh.. I have to take care of a money plant and a catus abandoned by previous employees. 
Totally irrelevant but this is what I ate today. Huge fish and chips for 5 bucks at Brickworks Food Centre. My current favourite lunch hang out.
Wednesday, February 06, 2008 3:40:00 PM
The Year of the Rat
Today is a half day at work and lunch was a treat by the boss's boss at Tung Lok Signatures at Vivocity. Absolutely fabulous food. We had shark's fin, abalone, Peking duck etc and of course the Lao Yu Sheng.
Have been receiving alot of treats lately from my bosses but I guess I've to pay back in terms of work performance when the new year is over.
I'm having mild flu now. To think I took the vaccine jab in Dec07 - suppose to ward off flu for half a year.. It's not even 3 months and I'm down with the deadly virus. Luckily there is a long weekend holiday. Hope I'll get better soon.
Tuesday, February 05, 2008 8:55:00 PM
Self Centered People Live Miserable Lives
Sometimes the things I hear makes my jaws drop. I thought these things only happen in award winning dramas. Too bad no prizes are given for what has happened.. only widen our eyes and see carefully who are the ones you can truly call friends.
We try our best to be inclusive and welcoming always hoping that one day our negative impressions towards certain people will change. We are all humans and are entitled to our own views but we always hope for the best.
Time and again when they do not reciprocate and instead try to hurt your feelings and relationships with others all while making themselves look like victims. I can only say that these people are scheming, narrow minded humans who only think for themselves. And because of their inferior complex, they also want to make your life as miserable as theirs.
Although I'm a third party in this issue but I know that people who are part of this saga are strong and their conscience is clear. They will not be affected by your negativity and self centeredness. Probably saddened by the death friendships ruined by
YOU,
manipulative, scheming little snake.
Perhaps you're not a fan of friendships because your tiny little brain can only think about yourself doesn't give you the authority to stop your intimate partner from meeting his long time friends ( which includes an ex girl friend). And to ruin their friendship bond is totally despicable.
Why do we have to always think about your feelings when we hold gatherings? And now we ALL know what feelings you're referring to. Gatherings are meant for people to catch up, network and maintain good relations. If you feel uncomfortable, just decline or let someone know properly, why kick up a big fuss?
You want us to keep in mind how you'll feel when you see the ex girlfriend whom previously had an intimate relationship with of your husband-to-be in the same room as you? TRY THINKING OF HER FEELINGS WHEN SHE SEES YOU (someone who's having sex with her ex-boyfriend and who's now your husband-to-be)!!
I don't think the ex girlfriend is very bothered since she's happily attached. But my point is, why do you have to make yourself feel so miserable? Everybody has a past, and it's like the 21st century already, HELLO! And I believe you're not all pure and chaste when your attached to him. I was so worked up when I heard this story, I wanted to slap this person " Wake up your idea lor!' And the saga doesn't end here but I don't wish to talk about it as it'll bring us to another (but related) whole big issue.
Really.. You bring all these insecurities and bad reputation upon yourself. The fuss that you've been kicking up really serves the purpose of entertaining us during dinner gatherings. Seriously, I don't think why my friends should even bother to ask you out in future.
Sunday, February 03, 2008 10:33:00 PM
Good Deeds Begets Good Karma
Before I start, check out Stomp website at
http://club.stomp.com.sg/clubstomp/displayAlbum.do?type=photo&id=303 for a picture some photographer took of us (my sec sche frens and I) at Cafe Del Mar's 1st Anniversary bash a couple of weeks ago.
[You gotta click next several time before you get to our picture] It's small but HEY! it's the first time any of my pictures appear on any publication =)
Dear Biyi downloaded the picture for us =)..................................
Back to the good karma thing. The cashier at CK departmental store in Chinatown returned me $1 more than he should when I paid for my toiletries. I had every intention to pocket the extra change but my conscience got the better of me. I walked all the way back and even bothered to queue up just to return that $1 change.
As I walked to the bus stop and even got up bus 851, I realised the cashier made a mistake and I was charged an extra $5 for my purchase as he scanned the more expensive item twice!
!@#$ I got down the bus and walk back to the store to rectify the mistake. (It was a short walk and thank goodness I had bus concession) I managed to get back my $5 from him.
I though to myself, if I had decided to pocket the $1 of extra change, I would be so eaten by my own conscience that I wouldn't have realised the OTHER more costly mistake that the cashier has made. It's really Xie Men, cos I was thinking to myself after I returned him the $1 change that I will receive good karma very soon. And true enough, my good karma came back making double check my receipt which led me to realising the error. Hee hee.. So I got back my $5 in exchange for $1.. Good deal..
Yeah so good deeds do begets good karma.. Live with a clear conscience ok?
Friday, February 01, 2008 11:59:00 PM
My First Day at Work (in a real job!)
It's not like the first day in nursery where it's perfectly OK to cry your eyes out and call for MaMa when you're scared and alone in an unfamiliar environment. Now at 24 years, in a completely new environment, with so much to absorb and keeping up with expectations.. I can't exactly call out for MaMa.. I'm all on my own to find my place in this corporate world.
The first day at work was quite eventful. It was mostly individual meetings with my teammates whether or not our work are related. I was drilled about the organisational structure over and over again. I guess it's extremely important that I get that ingrained in me. HP is huge and reporting lines are blurred so till now I only has a (gitz?) of how the org chart looks like..
My department is quite diverse.. Caucasian, Korean, Indian, Singaporeans.. Quite representative of what we are doing since we are incharge of Asia Pacific region for different HR functions. I kinda like my teammates already, they are an easy bunch to get along (so far).. Pretty easy to approach and talk to... So let's see how things will turn out =)
I have already adopted a money plant and a small catus left by the previous person sitting at my desk. It's a cosy place though it's the first desk along the walkway. The only woe that I have today is a malfuntioning laptop which is affecting the speed of me getting adapted to everything. As everything is online, I'm stuck if I can't log on to the computer. Tried 2 laptops but it still doesn't work. I can log on my account from my colleague's laptop so there is nothing wrong with my account. My new laptop will only come in a few weeks later.. Boo =(
And I made a major blunder just when I leave for work.. Have repeated several times today to my closest people.. I've been told to not think about it anymore.. Let's just say that when bosses offer you a ride it's smarter to just turn it down nicely..
After work was crazy shopping time with Von.. It was a really kickass shopping trip. Haven't felt so satisfied with my purchases in a very long time. We ate Ya Kun set A for dinner can.. It's so wrong! But we have a great time chatting.. always got different topics to chat about. We just continued to shop till all the shops close after Ya Kun.. When I came back with all my harvest, I saw that my facial masks that I ordered online came in the mail today. So happy.. It's like double happiness! My masks are still sitting nicely in the package.. So are all my shopping.. Shall slowly savour them tomorrow. Haha. I shall get some shut eye now.. Weekends are so important to be now.. I've joined the Blue Collar Club ^_^
