I am so frustrated and hurt by my parents sometimes. I'm not sure how I should put it.. Somehow I feel that the things that I accomplish, they are not be half as proud as they would be towards my brother's accomplishments.

It's my gut feeling and I trust my gut feelings. Siblings rivalry is inevitable. Genders are NEVER equal.

I'm happy my brother got his driving license today but it's exaggerating to see how my dad beam with pride. Whereas, when I said I'm going to give them a treat tmr with my first pay check, he didn't even beam half as much. This is not the first time such an incidence happen.. I'M JEALOUS.. so what?! Come on.. I bloody got myself a degree education, I took almost no time in getting a job in a reputable US MNC, I'm bloody getting my FIRST PAY CHECK tmr and going to give a treat. I deserve to share some "beams of pride" from my parents. Sometimes I feel as if I don't match up to my brother. I've to work twice as hard while perhaps he doesn't need to try and I wouldn't get as much credits as him. Yeah he's smart and he'll GET THERE if he tries hard enough. So? I'm dumb la.. it doesn't happen naturally for me and therefore have to work doubly hard to reach my "destination".

I'm so sick and tired of getting these treatments from my parents over the years although I believe they are doing without realising the damage it's having on me. They will always think I'm over sensitive when I voice out to them. Wonder why I have low self esteem and always thinking that I'm not good enough...

Von: Your think positively about this issue is not working on me today lei.. The situation is so bad that I think my heart is turning black..