tonight is a nerve wrecking night for me..
it's make or break...
i must have the self confidence to pull this through...
i am an excellent worker.. e best if you can train me right...

just give me a chance... please..

hmm... what shall I write today?

I had dinner with LN and Jac Jac together with HY
They just finished shooting a MTV for the their wedding banquet n they have great hosts to host the dinner. Envious~~
I hope I will be able to get hosts of the same calibre for my wedding!
Maybe I wun have a dinner.. just ROM and then holiday..

On one hand, it fits my practical persona.. On the other, I am any other girl.. Dream wedding banquet.. walking down that aisle..
Any best of both worlds? Perhaps and elaborated ROM? Sigh sigh sigh...

Bought chocolate muffins to lift my spirits for tmr morning's bfast! The Otis Spunkmeyer brand has the nicest chocolate muffins! It's made with REAL Semi sweer Chocolate and Dutch Cocoa. How wonderful is that?

A little bit about work today.. While I enjoy what I do at work, people have been leaving and I am still not getting my increment. That makes me feel like leaving too.. To go someplace and start afresh.. and not be an oldie who "knows it all" It's like the more you know, the more you have to do. There is no one else but you when your colleagues leave. And that feeling sucks.
I do hope I have good news to share soon. Shall cross my fingers and pray hard.

I wished I could have told the employee this..
"You can be honest with me. Is there an external offer that you can contemplating about?"
I could sense urgency in his voice as I speak with him on the phone. Requesting me to come out with his proposal for another internal job asap.
Guess, I will have to leave this response in future cases...

Had my mid year review today..

Generally good feedback.
Positive attitude, willingness to learning, detail oriented.. and adding one more i got from my peer today... I put people at ease - a skile which is important especially to HR folks.
Was asked about my development needs and I repeated once again that I am interested to move into Total Rewards.. Hopefully, I will get a chance soon.

Quite interestingly, my boss's 2 levels up was coincidentally also at the cafe where I am having my review. We were waiting for out coffee to be done and he came over to shake my hand and said, "I've heard great things about you Kristin." " Come and speak with me some time."
Of course, hearing this did wonders to my ego. I was beaming from ear to ear.

And then, my ex-boss also dropped by for coffee where I am having my review. He peeped over my boss's calendar and teased. "She has done a fabulous job in PSG APJ HR and now she has moved to the dark side (referring to my current dept)"

Most importantly I told my boss directly that I badly need a raise..
This time, I made my point very clear and emphasized the need for urgency : me = flight risk
I think the stars were aligned today since 2 senior leaders gave me good feedback in front of my boss. Hopefully this will help speed things up.

A lesson that I learnt today..
Expensive coffee place is a place to hang out if you want to chance on senior leaders and network with them. You will catch them during their casual time and this is potentially where they will let their guard down a little. There is a higher chance to get more out of your conversation.

Treating the parents to watch "The Unmistaken Child" this evening in celebration of Father's Day 2010. With nothing better to do on a Saturday morning, I decided to make a trip down to the Cathay to purchase tickets earlier to enjoy credit card benefits and to get better seats.

Enroute, I went shopping @ Plaza Singapura for a photo album to house the 300+ old photos my uncle brought to my house yesterday. For the 1st time, I saw photos of mom during her younger days - before she got married. As I thumb through the photos, I could see her bright and bubbly personality shining through. Kind of like how I am now. In most photos, she smile the widest and some others captured her heartiest smile. There was a time where she had to wear a dress for a function and she was showing alot of skin. I teased her about it.

As I was walking the streets and shopping centres alone - I dropped by Paragon too to visit La Senza, but none of the lingerie interest me - I could feel myself being more emotionally connected to my surroundings. I like these days where I trolled the streets on my own, being lost in my own thoughts and not having to socialize.

They were giving away free Minute Maid orange drinks in an outdoor area near paragon in exchange for the orange stress balls which can be collected at the nearest bus stop. I could have easily got myself a free drink - a full bottle - it's a very good deal for the small effort - but I didn't. I had a tiny weeny bit of temptation but chose to walk on instead. My next stop was at Times @ Plaza Singapura and they were giving away free coffee from Nescafe Gold. The fragrant smell of coffee whiffed passed my nose as I shopped for that photo album. Once I was done with my payment, I went to the coffee booth to grab my free cuppa. As I was sipping the coffee getting intoxicated by the caffaine, I thought to myself, "I rather queue for sample coffee than full size beverage. I must be getting old!!! If I am still in 17, I would have chosen orange drink over coffee. WTH."

I bumped into a man as I was walking to the box office or rather i walked into his path unwittingly. He seem quite pissed even after I apologized. He should have seen me coming a tried avoiding impact since he is of a certain height. Anyway, he was in front of me in the queue and I noticed his sweater was from BOSS. He had his wife with him and they both looked well dressed - Tai tai and Tycoon in casual style. As I waited for my turn to purchase movie tickets, I was watching the behaviour of this couple. They were not smiling, they don't look happy, the wife was frowning and complaining about something. Then I thought, "Rich and unhappy."

So.. I am going to end this post with a note to myself.

I will stay a happy fulfilled person. I will NEVER exchange money for happiness.

A blessed soul who meets good people all around. A strong believer that good begets good. A positive person who dreams of life being a bed of roses. Even when it's not, take it as a journey and learn from it. A kind and loving person.